I just got a reminder that this war I'm waging is a war of surrender. My whole world is turned upside down. I feel like I'm waging a war. I'm going after myself. And victory in this war is to achieve surrender. Not win. Rather, lose everything.
I'm having one of those moments where I can't wrap my head around it.
What am I to surrender to? My fears more than anything else. There is no way to conquer this fear. None that I see that wouldn't involve adding on more layers of illusion and lies. Surrendering to it, collapsing into it seems to be the only thing that is true right now.
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