My deal with the universe

I've talked about this but I think I should include it here. Basically, the last few months have been hard to put it mildly. I lost and still I'm losing some major structures in my life. And they are dissolving with a lot of light and sound. Very dramatic.

As all of this started to happen, I began to see or hear a message from the universe;"you don't need these things and I'm taking them away to show you that".

I heard loud enough and often enough to take a hard a look at my life. It began to seem clear to me that a lot, perhaps all, of the things and structures in my life are impediments and obstacles not assets. I worked hard all of my life to create these structures because I believed that's what's best for me. Perhaps I don't know what's best for me. I'm losing so much yet I feel lighter and happier. And scared out of my mind at times.

Either way, it became clear to me that I'm not in control of things. Things don't go one way or another because I willed them this or that way.

The universe seems to have a flow to it. And the best I can do is go with it. Get out of the way and allow it to flow. I can feel it very strongly now when I get in the way and impede the flow.

So, with all this in mind, I made a deal with the universe:

"Whatever you think is best for me, you bring it to me and put it in front of me, and make it easy. And I will pay attention and choose it. And I won't choose what is not in front of me which will take work and effort to go after. I will choose what you out in front of me".

I'm cheating a little bit here. I call it a deal but it's not. The universe has always worked this way. I'm just now learning to pay attention and choose what the universe puts n front of me. It feels easy and flowing when I do that. So that has become my signpost. I can feel when it's easy and flowing and when it's not. And I choose accordingly.