The first thing that keeps coming to mind over and over is my deep suspicion there is no destination! There is nowhere to go. I'm already here. I think. I sorta know it but not really.
I think the question I want to answer is:
1- What is true?
2- Who am I?
3- What is me?
4- Where am I?
5- What is here?
6- Where is here?
7- ...
They are actually the same question.
Where am I going and why am I going there?
Damn. Instead of beginning to come up with answers, I just come up with more questions. Is this the way it's supposed to work?
Rhetorical question. I don't think there is an answer to that. Right now, it feels right to come up with more questions, so I will follow it. That will probably change soon.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wake up! Remember...
A few things I want to remember as I embark on this journey:
1- Every step is a mountain. Each step will offer its own seemingly insurmountable obstacle.
2- Every door has a different key. What worked to unlock today's door is almost certainly not going to work tomorrow.
3- Don't get distracted! Go further. Resist the temptation to wallow in it, or being disheartened by it, or enjoying it, or getting "ready" for it by reading this or listening to that, or .... Fuck, there is a million ways to get distracted and get lost in the journey but there is only one destination. I want to reach it.
4- Think for yourself. Get in there and find out for yourself. If there is a truth, it is knowable by any of us equally. I will not take anyone's word for it. I'm going in to find out for myself.
1- Every step is a mountain. Each step will offer its own seemingly insurmountable obstacle.
2- Every door has a different key. What worked to unlock today's door is almost certainly not going to work tomorrow.
3- Don't get distracted! Go further. Resist the temptation to wallow in it, or being disheartened by it, or enjoying it, or getting "ready" for it by reading this or listening to that, or .... Fuck, there is a million ways to get distracted and get lost in the journey but there is only one destination. I want to reach it.
4- Think for yourself. Get in there and find out for yourself. If there is a truth, it is knowable by any of us equally. I will not take anyone's word for it. I'm going in to find out for myself.
Spiritual Autolysis
I just finished Jed McKenna's book, "Spiritual Enlightenment, The Damnedest Thing". In it, he talks about his process of awakening which involved a process he calls "Spiritual Autolysis". In its essence, the process aims at dissolving the self through the repeated attempt to answer the question "what is true?".
I have no idea if this process works or not. Jed McKenna is a nom de plume for an unknown author. I don't know if what he suggests works. I have not found a reference on the web to anyone who applied it successfully. All I know is that it has a ring of truth to it from past experiences I've had. I just stopped after a certain point in the past.
This time, I'm determined to go further. "Further" is actually Jed McKenn'as battle cry. That and "find out for yourself".
I intend to keep going further and find out for myself.
This blog will be an unedited journal that I may or may not share with anyone.
I have no idea if this process works or not. Jed McKenna is a nom de plume for an unknown author. I don't know if what he suggests works. I have not found a reference on the web to anyone who applied it successfully. All I know is that it has a ring of truth to it from past experiences I've had. I just stopped after a certain point in the past.
This time, I'm determined to go further. "Further" is actually Jed McKenn'as battle cry. That and "find out for yourself".
I intend to keep going further and find out for myself.
This blog will be an unedited journal that I may or may not share with anyone.
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