Failure

I'm engaged in a pursuit with a nearly perfect failure record.

Fuck!

This is the fear that's got me today.

Not dying. Not losing an arm or a leg. But wasting my time.

If it's not one fear it's another. There is always something to be afraid of.

I can't stand it any more.

The irony is I can't think of anything to do that would not be wasting my time. It all leads to the same place. A lonely grave.